I would respectfully suggest that the vast majority of people who throw around words like:

depression, desperation, hopelessness, defeat, ethics, easy, challenge, adversity, abandonment, betrayal, disappointment, self-doubt, anguish

Have little to no idea what those words actually feel like.

I still just can't process that I've been so completely thrown under such a huge bus by people I trusted my life with on their word as friends.

Please note:  if anyone out there is ever tempted to 'help' me in the way that my recently-retired hosts have 'helped' me...don't.

The idea that these sanctimonious, self-righteous bastards have the temerity to suggest that *I* am lacking in ethics or the courtesy and consideration due a friend...is by turns outrageous and laughable to the point of hysteria.

How dare any human being ever do something like this to another.

I deserve better.  Even convicted felons have a roof and three meals a day.  Some of them even have hope.

I have no earthly idea how I'm going to survive the next few days.

I have no earthly idea *if* I'm going to survive the next few days.

But it sure is good to know that everyone else's "best interests" are well taken care of.

If I ever get enough rest to regain the energy to hate...

-jh